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Welcome! I’m Jason Mellard.
I am committed to empowering men who are experiencing unwanted same-sex attraction or negative habits to live the life they truly desire, through the power of Christ and for the glory of God.
I coach men to live beyond their unwanted attractions or habits and into their purpose, so they can own their identity and magnify their impact.
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Dear Younger Me
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Take Inspiration from Eden
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Deflate Your Attractions
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Is Masculinity Beyond Your Reach?
A belief of separateness from masculinity is a primary driver of same-sex attractions. As a boy, I had an out-of-body experience during a father-son activity meant to bring connection. The...
Expand Your Vision of What’s Possible
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Dear Younger Me – CJ
Dear Younger Me, I wish I could be next to you right now, giving you the attention you deeply desire but haven’t received. But I want you to know that I see you. I am familiar with the long route...
Talk to Yourself, Don’t Listen to Yourself
When I was young, the mirror was a comfort to me. My reflection gave me certainty; it told me I was likable and competent. I was touring the architecture building at my future college. I widened my...
Dear Younger Me – Tim
Dear Timmy, I’m so grateful I get to write this letter to you. Let it remind you that things won’t always be as they are. You won’t always feel being picked last for baseball in PE is the end of...
Rewrite the Story of Your Past
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June Belonged to Me and My Dad
Before the overlay of Pride, June belonged solely to me and my dad. It contains Father’s Day, my birthday, and his. My birthday fell on Father’s Day this year. My wife was out of town but...
Dear Younger Me – Bruce
Dear Younger Me, I want to give you an essential truth. If I had known it at your age, it would have transformed the way I lived. Please receive it and believe it. Your life will not be the same:...
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Dear Younger Me – Ken G
Dear Younger Me, I was asked to write a letter to you, Kenny, and I hope you will hear and receive my words. Kenny, I look back and see how lonely and afraid you were during most of your childhood....
Own Your Identity
What you say after the words “I am” is the most important thing about you. A FRAGILE SHELL My mom has been teaching my daughters how to decorate blown eggs. They put scotch tape over each end,...
Discard Shame
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Fear Magnifies Your Same-Sex Attractions
Fear makes things bigger. It’s the shadow of a bedside toy looming as a monster on the wall. It grows with time, exaggerates risk, fosters isolation, and veils your dreams. Left unchecked, it...
Demystify Your Attractions
Attraction is multifaceted. It comes in all shapes and sizes. By identifying the attractions we feel, we remind ourselves they are simply experiences. They do not define who we are. We can...
My Story
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Choose Your Frequency
Have negative thoughts snowballed on you? The more attention and influence I give them, the louder and more frequent they become. I get tuned in to them. Here is an analogy I bring to mind when I...
Embrace Pursuit to Live Fully Alive
I want to live full out. That has been my desire and God’s design but often not my experience. When I honor and learn from both my healthy and unhealthy pursuits, I open myself up to experience more...
Leverage Your Same-Sex Attraction for Personal Growth
When I discovered my same-sex attraction, I believed it was the nail in the coffin to achieving the masculinity I had dedicated time to study and model. SSA was a big “F” on my manliness report...
How to Redirect Desire by Owning Your Emotions
In my last blog post, I described a day in which I first felt intense physical desire toward another man. My mind and body felt certain that acting on those desires would provide relief from my...
Harness Mindfulness to Neutralize Same-Sex Attraction
For many years, I was on the defensive against my same-sex attractions and strong emotions. My desire to deny and avoid them kept me from being mindful of my thoughts and feelings surrounding them....
Why Your Same-Sex Attractions are Not a Problem
Problems standing in the way of achieving a goal need a solution. Your same-sex attractions, on the other hand, don’t need to be solved. They are just experiences you are having that can be observed...